Anticipation
I used to get very excited for things in life. I used to build up huge amounts of anticipation. The planning and thinking were almost as fun as the actual event.
Over the last year or so, though, I feel like my anticipation muscle has atrophied. It's not that I haven't had fun plans. I've had lots. But for some reason, I just haven't looked forward to things in the same way.
The curious thing is why. And I don't really know.
I finally felt a little anticipation today. And it was really wonderful. I miss that!