today

I want to think deeply. But on Father's Day I have such a mix of emotions. It's hard to take all my crazy thoughts and arrange them.

I love my dad.
I know my dad loves me in his own way.
I know God fills in the gaps.
I know that forgiveness for the ways I have felt abandoned is how I can find peace.
I don't feel like crying today.
I wish I knew what to say to show my dad love.
I'm so grateful for my husband who is an amazing dad and husband.
I love how God takes my emotional needs that I speak to Him and wows me.
I guess I should ask for more, but would that be selfish?

I remember staying at my dad's house as a little girl and eating popcorn, Tombstone pizza with sauteed mushrooms, and mac & cheese. I remember Lake Powell and lots of other time out on the lake. I remember driving to his church downtown. I remember eating hashbrowns at McDonalds for breakfast. I remember folding newspapers in the garage.

I know that I need to let go of my expectations and accept my dad for who he is. He is hard-working. He is friendly. He is helpful. He knows how to take care of a lot of things. He's my dad.

Lord, please help me respect and love my dad. Fill in my gaps where I need them filled. Give me words of love for my dad. Thanks! M