Saturday, June 27, 2009

Anger

I don't feel that I am easily angered. Maybe my kids would say differently, but anger that lasts more than a couple of minutes is pretty foreign to me. So now that I'm feeling it, I am not sure how to deal with it.

Well, that's not exactly true, now is it? I know I need to forgive.

But the emotion, though it has subsided, is still strong enough to make me question how to deal with it.

I don't want to excuse it away. I don't want to say, "it's okay" and try to go on like it wasn't a big deal.

But really, was it a big deal? It feels like it but, in the grand scheme of things, probably not.

So, why don't I want to let go of my anger? I need to remember LarryBoy and the Angry Eyebrows....Bok Choy says that letting go of my anger will free me. I wonder if I could find that video and watch it tonight?

The road to forgiveness is a hard road. And how I handle it tomorrow is still something I have no vision for. I've planned my words many times, but none of my plans extend forgiveness. So, I have more praying to do...and *deep breath* I know God will help me say what needs to be said...no more and no less.

1 Comments:

At 10:11 PM, Blogger Feliza said...

I can very much empathize with this. I hope that all went well and that you've been feeling better.

 

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